Feeling Fat

How hard is it when you can’t keep going on with life the way you were used to? Most of the times its adjustable but it’s so much harder when it wasn’t your choice to have your life be changed. I was really happy with the way things ere when I was working out. I finally got my schedule to a point where I can work, do school stuff, go to physical therapy and complete my project without much issues. It took so long to adjust and then my whole plan was destroyed.

It hit my confidence also though. I had to make a new plan to fit everything into my schedule. That was a bit easier since its not as much stuff but what do I do with the free time? I loved going to martial arts, working out and everything. Not only was it working out for me but also it was building relationships. It was making bonds with people. Relieving stress. It made me a bit healthier, mentally.

Now I feel fat, my mind is heavy, filled with all the dreams and desires of doing the things that I was doing for the last 5-6 months. I miss it so much already. The worse part is that my mind isn’t the only thing that is bothering me. I feel like I have been gaining weight. My body doesn’t look as strong as it used to. I feel weak, which is the reason why I can’t continue with my project right? My body won’t hold up long enough to make it through this project.