Only Got My Prezi Left To Do

With everything I have done in my senior project it seems to look like I am getting close to the end. Actually I know that I’m close to the end. I can say that the end is near. I can’t be any happier about it. After a long year of stress, pain and struggle I can only imagine what freedom from all of this will feel like.

With all this in mind I know that I only really have to focus on this one last major thing. I have to start and finish this prezi. Not only will it be somewhat long, it will be my guide to showing my whole committee what I have done throughout this year. If I can’t convince 5 of 6 people that I should pass this project then my entire senior year would mean nothing to me.

I look to break so that I can have a lot of time to complete this prezi. I hope to start and complete the whole prezi over break. I will have a lot of time out of school and even though I have to work and go to appointments I’m pretty sure I will find the time to get it done. I want to put videos and pictures in my prezi but I have to upload them first. I already got a bunch of pictures that I can use. Hopefully I find good spots to put them at, plus they would be good fillers. With this one thing left I feel like I’m ready to finish my senior year.

Prezi Coming Soon

Since I have handed in my research paper the only thing I have left to do is my prezi, which is going to the way that I am going to present my journey through this senior project. I think I'm going to get some help from Amber so hat I can make sure that it is very interesting. When I was first introduced to Prezi over the summer at work, Amber was one of the people in my group so she did part of our group Prezi. I love the part that Amber did, I also thought it was one of the most creative in the way she used colors and the motion to make sure that it was interesting.

She said she liked my part also but it's not about only one of us liking it. I need to make sure it's good enough to keep my whole committee interested. I may just need Amber's opinion, if she thinks it's good enough. Of course I'm going to ask other people also but Amber's thoughts will hold a lot of weight because she actually did a Prezi before and knows how good it can be and she knows how to change things if needed.

I'm really getting excited now though. I am really happy to only have this one thing left. I still have to go to the classes and work on my self defense stuff but I will be good with that for sure but most of my work need to be focused on this prezi. I am confident that I will do well on it because I have a bunch of pictures and videos to put in it. It will give me a lot of things to talk about and my journey has been so long and intensive that I have a lot to talk about.

I think just the prezi alone will take about a hour or so but I will be glad if it does. I want everyone to know about my journey, the complete version. So I decided that I want some outside people to come to final meeting. My mom is going to get off work for the time that I have my meeting and I also want Amber, her parents and a few other people to come. I will decide for sure once it gets closer to that time.

Research Complete

Whoooo. Finally got that research paper done. It was hard to go back to it knowing that I made a huge mistake on the first one. Had to suck up my pride and bust it down. This week was really crucial when it came down to this paper cause I had to go back and make sure that a lot of things looked right. I went around all this week reading to people what I had down on my paper. Making sure that it wasn’t plagiarized and making sure that it sounded like it was in my own words.

It wasn’t that hard but just took a lot of time so it was like really making sure I sat down and focused on it. I read a lot more information this time and finally got a full understanding on just about everything I have. Not only was it done but it was also handed in before the deadline, which provides me with another plus because now I have met just about every deadline in my senior project without missing a deadline.

This brings me one step closer to graduation. My biggest (and only) paper of this year is complete. I really wish I can continue on but we know it’s not the best. I think I’m going to keep looking up things about martial arts though. It was really interesting to me and I enjoy learning about it. It gives me more things to do in my future and I’m excited.

Mentally Fighting

I feel like I am a bit better now. Maybe I have complained about a lot of pain thus far but have I not been completing the project as I said I would do in the beginning of the year.? I can tough out the pain. I know that right now because I don’t really feel much. Okay maybe my knee is hurting a tad bit but let me go out on the floor. All I want right now is to throw a kick. I don’t have to hit anything or even anyone, I can’t just throw one for fun?

My heart is craving a little exercise. It really relieved me. Stressful long days at school were all pushed put my head as I pushed a little weights: “One, two, three…” I miss the heavy things in my life. When you practice heavy things you get used to making it through heavy things, I have a belief that this makes you a strong person. So day by day by day by day I am pushing nothing, only making myself weak.

Fighting against what my body needs and what my mind want, I want rest to heal but also to punch. I’m so confused because it’s like I honestly do want both.  I already have one chosen out for me and I think that makes it a bit harder. Maybe it would have been better if I can choose what days to go to practice on days like today where I crave the workout I just go and tough it out, but on other days when I’m too tired and in too much pain I can just go to bed. I don’t know. I just don’t know what to do.

I’m just a little tired of fighting my mind, fighting the emotions and having to restrain every negative thought that comes with the pain of not being able to complete this project. All the thoughts about my physical abilities, which attacks me mentally.

Dojo Meeting

First day back at the dojo since our senior meeting. Man, how distraught I have been since that meeting. Almost two weeks ago. I couldn’t make it last week because my knees were killing me. This time that is to be used for resting has been good but it’s just a little ironic. Instead of resting I’m stressing. How am I to be calm when I’m worried about my success in this project?

But then I remembered, that I just have to do what I agreed to do. Go to the dojo every week to sit in on session. That was completed today. Finish my research project, that’s what Harry and I talked about when I was in his office today. I came in and to my surprise he had a list of all the words he used while we were learning shoshindo. I’m not sure what language the words are said in but he told me how to say it the proper way. And since the words were written down then I was able to see the spelling of each word also, awesome.

I made a mental note that I should and will definetly use this paper to beef up my presentation as much as possible. I lost all my physicality in presentation expect the self defense techniques. So that’s the main thing Harry wanted to focus on when I got to the dojo. He made sure that we went over self defense techniques in details. He showed me how each technique should be performed. That really helped. Now I feel more secure because that’s one of the only things I have to do in my presentations. I’m scared for my presentation but I think I will be ready by April 23.

Just as a side note, me and Harry talked about the paper and I explained the difficulty I was still having when it came down to the interviews and he said to not worry about it. He doesn’t want me killing myself over it because the people in the community have no commitment to me. It’s not their first priority.

RIT Accepted

Can’t even breathe right now I’m too excited. I already gotten two other accepted letters this year but I never knew how it felt to be accepted into the only school that I really really wanted to go to. It feels good. To know that everything I have done to make my acceptance has worked. Keeping in touch with Matt Reynell since the summer time, going on tours, contacting them with any questions and ever finishing FBLE so that I can make a good name to whoever I met there.

But not only did I get accepted, they waived my $300 fee that I needed to put down to hold my seat. That means that all I have left to do is turn in the paper with the checked box saying that I will attend RIT, and trust me, I will attend RIT this fall. I’ve been putting all of my hope faith, and stress in the fact that I will go there, so here I am, accepted into RIT’s Accounting Program.

I plan on going to RIT on Monday to turn in this paper and also to go and get an RIT sweater. I can’t wait to get it cause I just been waiting so long. One thing that I find really good about getting my acceptance is that I am now more motivated to get all of my work done so that I know I can graduate on time. I already got accepted now all I need is my diploma and final transcript. I have more of a reason now to complete all my work, including this project. I will be happier when everything is complete.